Funeral

January 26, 2007 11:17 pm

I know that everyone is probably tired of reading about this, but, well, it is an important part of my life and I promise, once I’ve talked about it I will get back to the knitting content (because there is some!)

Today was the funeral.  Seeing the casket for the first time was so difficult. Knowing that Dad’s body was in there. I know that “he” wasn’t in there, that it was only the shell of him that was there. It was very hard to keep it together and I had quite a few moments where I was crying very hard and others where there was some laughter.  Cameron asked “mommy why is water coming from your eyes” and I said that I was just sad. It was so cute.

I also had to explain to Cameron about where his Papa was.  That his body was in the casket but his soul is now with the angels up in the sky.  He wanted to see the stars where Papa was but because it was daylight they weren’t out.  I explained that Papa would look over us like the sun and the moon do.  That no matter what he would be here for us.

The eulogy was beautiful and I’ll post it here once I get a copy of it.

As for knitting.  I haven’t gotten much done but I have been slowly working away on a project. I think that is what has helped keep me sane.

8 Responses to “Funeral”

Amanda wrote a comment on January 27, 2007

((((((((HUGS)))))))

I was thinking about you all day yesterday and wish I could have given you a big hug,

We miss you and look forward to having you back. Stay strong beautiful.

Aunty antsy wrote a comment on January 28, 2007

You write about Don as long as you wish. this is your forum and your healing path. I’ll keep reading,(and not just cause we’re kin) although I do have some questions about log cabin blankets…

tracy wrote a comment on January 30, 2007

I lost my father almost four years ago and I am very sorry for your lost. This Blog may help you heal, it took me counseling and anti depressants to get my life back on track. I wish you luck and would like to remind you how lucky you are to of had such a wonderful father.

Marie wrote a comment on January 31, 2007

You vent, we’ll still read.

Terra wrote a comment on February 1, 2007

Beautiful sweater, we need a modelled shot! One day when I have a job (and am not paying through the nose to attend the University), I will instantly take your advice and buy the yarn I so enjoyed fondling while you were knitting with it…one day.

Malena wrote a comment on February 12, 2007

I just saw your blog today. My heart did a little jump when I read of your Dad’s funeral. My Dad passed away Dec 16, 2005 and it still is difficult. I keep thinking, if I could just talk to him. I do of course, but I want him to talk back . . . The obituary was beautiful. I thought that I would be able to write my Dad’s, but in the end I could not. The sadness and the sleep deprivation prevented doing much more than keeping my Mom going.

I’m sorry for telling you this. I just feel so for you.

Blessings.

mama-e wrote a comment on February 17, 2007

I am so sorry… I know that pain… of loosing your dad. Thinking of you.

Kailey wrote a comment on February 19, 2007

I love you sis!! hoping to come and see you soon!*Mwah*
P.S- I have your bag and your lipgloss, ill mail it, or give it to you when i come up.
Love Kailey xoxo

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