It would have been my dad’s 54 birthday today. I know that wherever he is there is laughter, love, golf and beer … someplace warm of course because he loved the sunshine. Happy Birthday Dad. I love you. I miss you.

Okay moving on to happier things (well not that it was a totally sad post or anything).

Since I have broken my wrist I haven’t been able to knit to the extent that I would like. My normal evenings of knitting have had to change dramatically. I’ve even managed to go to bed early a night or two because I couldn’t imagine sitting watching tv without anything to do. Also, I’ve been mapping out some designs that I want to do up over the next few months. However, I don’t want to do a true swatch etc yet because I am not sure if it will be a true representation of what my gauge will be like once my knitting is back to normal.

I have been able to spin. I am doing a bit more each day which of course I love. Currently I am spinning up some of Crown Mountain Farm’s Blue Suede Shoes Corrindale Roving. I started plying it last night and still have some to spin up that I’ll do once I’ve plied the two full bobbins. I have to say that I absolutely love the color. Its a very “me” color.

I will add pictures of that hopefully tomorrow depending on how much spinning I get done tonight. There isn’t much on except the Pussycat Doll’s …Crochet. Now that on the other hand I have been able to do more off since I use mostly my right hand. Awhile ago, when I was adding to my substantial stash, I purchased some “Almost Socks that Hop” from CMF. The colorway is “My Boyfriends Back”.

Destined to be a shawl. I’ll have the pattern up and stuff once I’m done. I am considering putting some silk behind it. Not quite sure though.Oh. And my new favourite drink … ready for it …Venti non fat extra hot half sweet vanilla english breakfast mist extra steeped

aka

London Fog

But the Starb*cks freak in me likes the long version.

Hmm what else. Oh it was R’s bday yesterday. I really do wish him all the happiness in the world. I think that at the age of 50 he needs to find happiness with himself and in his life. We have had many long conversations of late about his girlfriend and the fact that she is the only problem in our relationship as friends because she doesn’t understand the fact that we are friends. He keeps on justifying why she is the way that she is. I know that it stresses him out and that he now has a deadline for her to accept him and me as I will always be in his life as a friend and the mother of his son. But what bothers me is the stress that he inflicts upon himself. I still love him but am just not “in love” with him. My wants for his future are happiness and contentment. And I can’t “fix” this for him. I think that is what bothers me the most. I can’t make it better.

Hmm in reading what I’ve just written it seems like I’m mothering him. Perhaps I am. I have spent many years doing so with him. Knowing his little quirks and what he needs to do to get into certain states of mind. I guess this is a point to ponder for me.

I am also dating someone. I haven’t wanted to mention too much about it because its casual companionship (cc). R does know about the cc as I am not going to hide too much from him *g*.

Okay. Need to do some work. Hopefully tomorrow I’ll have pictures.

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